upside down

what in the world is going on? how is it that you can everything figured out and then a dream comes along and turns everything upside down? i don't feel like i'm the type of person who can just throw caution to the wind and go with my heart.....at least i haven't been that person for the last 7 years or so. But what if I did? Should I? I'm such a worrier and a planner when it comes to things like this. The idea of losing control for a split second scares me to death. However, I can't lie. The idea of letting my heart lead me is kind of exciting...... what DO I wanna be when I grow up????? oh the possibilities.